I have made a discovery: no one is reading Clio Confidential anymore. At least, not according to my sitemeter. Of course, I have only myself to blame. I stopped posting parenting content these last few months as I got waylaid by design. Then, when there was new content, I stopped sharing it to facebook because I've been posting the design blog posts over there to scare up some readers, and didn't want to overload my FB network with blog posts. So perhaps no one knows that there is new content when there is new content. This realization about my readership raises the latest in a long string of questions about what this blog is supposed to be. I thought I had come to the conclusion that it is for the girls, but then really, why do I feel sad that no one is reading it?
These last six months have been tough for me. Things are not working out quite the way I expected since our big move, and I am nervous about the future. For the first time since starting this blog, I have chosen not to process my fears and all the changes we are going through here, partly because....well, I don't know why exactly. I didn't want to publicly admit defeat? I was scared of how I was thinking? I understood that this wasn't the place to feel sorry for myself? Probably all of the above, and then some.
I recently had to write a bio, and I found that, without a job or a clear sense of where my career is heading next, I didn't know what to say about myself, or how to define myself. It's funny, I know that I should say I am a "blogger"; it's something I love to do and have been doing regularly for a long time now. But "real" bloggers have readers, and are part of a "community of bloggers" and write guest posts on each other's sites etc. And to be honest, it feels a little late in the game to get in on all of that. I did make choices along the way that kept this blog personal, more of an online journal than a blog as it has come to be understood, and I'm okay with that. But I don't want to write into the void, or into a future where my girls can know too much about themselves from these pages. I do want readers, even if they are all people that I know. Maybe especially then.
So, I would love your input. Because I do know all (or most) of you, I'm not going to make a survey and ask you to fill it out, as professional bloggers sometimes do. But if you do read and enjoy this blog, and have stuck with me through the years, please leave a comment here, or email me, to let me know what kind of content you like and would like to see more of. I am terrible at asking for help, or putting myself out there, but I would so appreciate your thoughts!
Thanks, in advance.
Oh, and I'm thinking I'll repeat the February Post a Day Challenge, to get back on the horse. Although I am off to a slow start!